What is He telling you?
Have you ever had a dream, then woke up wondering the interpretation? Dreaming about fish sometimes mean someone is pregnant. Dreaming about money can mean a promotion. But what does it mean when you have a reoccurring dream over a span of two decades? YEP! You read that correctly. I’ve had the same dream for years!! Now the dream wasn’t exactly the same each time, but there was a reoccurring theme. Let me explain.
I was about 6 years old when I began having these dreams. It started when I dreamt that I was in a mall and a man was sitting at a table in front of a doorway that I was trying to get into. The man shot me in the leg for an unknown reason. I didn’t bleed. I didn’t cry. I just had pain. Excruciating pain! It hurt to stand, and even worse when I walked. Another time I had a dream my family and I were at the movie theater heading to our seats. Out of nowhere, each step I took became more and more painful that I eventually ended up getting on my hands and knees and crawling the rest of the way. During my high school years, I dreamt I was walking to class and, once again, that pain came. Despite the pain, I still tried to walk but it became so agonizing that I started to crawl. Even crawling started to hurt because I still had to use my legs. Unlike the other dreams, I was slowly gaining strength to stand up and walk. That night I woke up thinking, “Maybe I won’t have these dreams again. Maybe this means whatever THIS IS will stop and I won’t dream about this pain anymore”. Unfortunately, I still had those dreams. More recently, I dreamt I was at my old apartment heading up the stairs. You can guess what happened next.
Dream after dream, the common theme was the inability to walk due to tormenting pain. The pain felt so real. I began to hate when i had these dreams. I never felt pain like that in my life and it’s difficult to put into words or compare it to something I’ve experienced. When I took a step, it’s kind of like steel going through my legs. At the same time it was a numbing pain. I eventually told my dad about the dreams and he told me the Most High could be showing me that my walk (or being a follower of the Most High), won’t be easy. I will lose friends. I will be persecuted for His name sake. I will be an outcast. Everything my dad told me is true. Living a life for the Most High is not popular and comes with its challenges, but those who endure to the end shall be saved! Now that I had the interpretation, I didn't need to keep having these dream...so i thought.
I continued to have these dreams, but what happened after a gym workout, one day, opened my eyes! I’m small framed. Always been tiny. When you look at me you wouldn’t think I needed to go to the gym. I’ve always struggled with gaining weight so I would go to the gym to work on my muscle mass. More muscle, more weight! I stopped going for a while but decided to get back to it. I went to the gym for the first time in months. Anyone who works out know, when you haven’t worked out in a while, you should start off slow and light then day-by-day work your way up to the heavier weights. Well, I decided to pick up where I left off. I was working my legs that day. Easy peasy. Got my work out in. Went home. End of story. The next day, I was a little sore, which is expected after a workout. Nothing out the norm. I was heading up the steps in my house and when I took my first step, I immediately was reminded of every last one of these dreams, The pain I felt was identical! I froze on the steps. I knew if I kept walking, I’ll be in pain so I would need to crawl my way up the stairs. In that moment I realized that, not only was my dad’s interpretation correct, but the Most High was also revealing to me that just how we need to be physically fit and work out regularly to stay healthy and strong, we need to also be spiritually fit. We can’t expect to go to the gym once and think we're good. Our muscles will become weak and we will need to build them up again. Same thing applies in the spiritual. Constant praying, fasting and reading scriptures is required to face the challenges in life. We do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against principalities, powers, rulers of darkness and spiritual wickedness in high places. We must be strong to WALK this walk. Especially in the time we are living in today, are you strong enough to fight? Not just a spiritual or physical fight… It can be an emotional fight or a mental fight as well. The Most High speaks in so many ways and it took over 20 years of the same dream and my “one-time” gym workout to reveal what He was saying.
So, What is He telling you?